The Future's So Scary What Can I Do?

I need to study because I want to become a doctor. 

That sounds very demotivating to me, I don't know why. Probably because of how cliche it sounded.

But sometimes I do have a thought that perhaps because I am one of the generation that will once have to replace Tun Mahathir, Dato' Seri Najib, Zety Aziz, Dato' Seri Hishammuddin, you get what I mean, perhaps that is why I have to hold this pen and these uninviting books. Probably it's because we still can't see that coming, because we're still lazying around in our comfort zone, probably that's why we're slacking off. We feel like we're still kids, so we don't have to meddle in with the adults. Music shows are more tempting than talks about global issues, I agree. 

But when the thing that we dread most comes, when our country is on the verge of crumbling. What if it comes faster than expected, for the sake of protecting what we love, who we love, we would definitely step in to fight. But with our current condition, the question is, what do we fight with? The vague knowledge that we have? I'm being frank here, with my current knowledge, if we put in percentage, the amount of knowledge that may enable me to help my country is..well, close to zero. Realizing that just makes me want to slap my own face. Not literally. What have I been doing for these past 21 years? Oh. I have the answer to that. I've been taking advantage of the prosperous and peaceful life that I have. And time. Oh how much I've wasted that.

The first thing that has got to change is. My attitude.

The first thing that has got to go is. My laziness. Which is stuck like glue to me.